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i'm sick of spending these lonely nights
training myself not to care...
because i do care about something...
and life is worth living
if you add up the good moments
and not hold on to the bad ones
you could make a book of good memories
instead of flipping through
the pages of my past.

i'll color this picture for you
the sky's turning black and then blue
she's sticking to you
this wide-eyed night
alone in a bed full of fears
it's sticking to you.

readmeright2...

i heard this as well...through the hours:

"if you love some thing (or someone)... give it (or them) away..."





alive.
-josh

readmeright...

hello...to whomever reads this blog...near or far:

so.

i heard a song tonight as i walked down a nice street near my home.

it went like this: (feel this)

"i can see the chill in the air between us.

i can feel a winter coming we're frozen in our stares.
and we know there's a world outside
of these insults and injuries
maybe we're just too, afraid to be one.

the autumn sets a golden exit the winter is waxing
that cold sun will shed no more warmth into our living rooms.
where we dream our dreams, where we wait for sleep.
maybe we'll wake up with golden wings,
and fly over a city screaming, take me take me!

i woke up this morning to the silence of falling snow.
these graces of beauty have left me so cold.
i once had a heart, but hearts are like snowflakes
and snowflakes. one warm touch and they melt away
maybe we'll get wings. maybe anything.
just anything to set us free. maybe we'll wake up
a golden exit. must we always wait for sleep?"

hummmmmmm...

hummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

what do you think?

i know what i think... i like these words.

readmeright...tonight.

goodbye.

i came as a josh...

here i am at the library computer staions typing these words to you...whoever is out there that chooses to. i was having an off night and decided that it was best to move myself outside of home...so i went to the library to check out a book...a book that had been recently both recommended to me and read to me. how about that?
so, i wanted to check out breakfast of champions...but soon found out that i didn't know how to spell champions correctly...(champaions?...ahhhh...champ-i-ons...)
anyway, i finally found out how to spell this darn word. i never was a fan of the interaction..."how do you spell this word"..."look it up in the dictionary"..."but i don't know how to spell it".

maybe that's just me.

so then, also today, i was thinking about change.
specifically this came to my mind: change=movement in some direction

then i got to thinking about positive and negative change within ourselves.
i'm working on some change.
and sometimes it's hard to change because we don't want to.
or are too lazy...or comfortable.
or even sometimes it seems easier in these bad cracks in our lives.
but sometimes i'm just afraid...
i think because i'm afriad of what i'll lose in return for change.
or think i'll lose.
or maybe what i think i'll lose i never really had in the first place.

but i'm gonna find out.
and i want to make myself better.

jonezzzz

okay...ohkay...so, okay...maybe i have been hitting the secret society/molech/alex jones stuff pretty hard...but despite all of this craziness, i still do believe that the man has some good stuff to say...so i thought i'd pass this little excerpt from a movie titled, "waking life" in which alex has a small scene...i hope that you enjoy these words:

(imagine an early thirties man proclaiming these words while his face becomes redder and even redder...oh, and this guy is an austin, texas christian)


"We saw it all through the 20th Century. And now in the 21st Century, it's time to stand up and realize that we should not allow ourselves to be crammed into this rat maze. We should not submit to dehumanization. I don't know about you, but I'm concerned with what's happening in this world. I'm concerned with the structure. I'm concerned with the systems of control, those that control my life and those that seek to control it even more! I want freedom! That's what I want! And that's what you should want!

It's up to each and every one of us to turn loose and show them the greed, the hatred, the envy, and yes, the insecurities because that is the central mode of control - make us feel pathetic, small so we'll willingly give up our sovereignty, our liberty, our destiny. We have got to realize that we're being conditioned on a mass scale. Start challenging this corporate slave state! The 21st Century is going to be a new century, not the century of slavery, not the century of lies and issues of no significance and classism and statism and all the rest of the modes of control! It's going to be the age of humankind standing up for something pure and something right!

What a bunch of garbage - liberal Democrat, conservative Republican. It's all there to control you. Two sides of the same coin. Two management teams bidding for control! The C.E.O. job of Slavery, Incorporated! The truth is out there in front of you, but they lay out this buffet of lies. I'm sick of it, and I'm not going to take a bite out of it! Do you got me? Resistance is not futile. We're gonna win this thing. Humankind is too good! We're not a bunch of underachievers! We're gonna stand up and we're gonna be human beings! We're gonna get fired up about the real things, the things that matter: creativity and the dynamic human spirit that refuses to submit! Well that's it! That's all I got to say! It's in your court."




does that get you fired up to believe something?
to want to do something/
to change?

heigh hallo

hello life,


what have you been doing recently

what have you been up to

do you think you still care

it is not always an easy thing to do

goodbye life.

hello josh,


how is your life

how has it been recently

do you still think

do you still breathe

i hope so

good night josh.

goodnight life.

gerrrrsc

greeting from hannover, germany.
i'm sitting backstage right now as koufax is playing along to songs. this is about the 13th day on tour so far...the days and nights are long, but i am in germany. it is quite odd seeing germany in this manner. each morning we awake in a new apartment, hotel, or hostel, board our tour van and tomas (our check republic driver) sets us out on the freeway. most of the time in the van is spent sleeping...it seems as if there is something in the air in that van...the second we get going, everyone is passed out. maybe this has a lot to do with going to bed at 5 a.m. the night before...maybe.
when we pull up to the club, wipe the sleep out of our eyes and step into a dark room, there is usually a "snack" waiting for us. this snack is quite different than one would expect in the states...usually a huge platter of fresh bread, cheeses, meats, fruits, veggies, and other assorted goodies await our hungry stomachs...plus all the beer, wine, sparkling water, tea, and coffee one could ever need. after sound check dinner is usually served or we are sent to a near-by establishment to pick our meals of choice. my favorite was in oldenburg where i devoured a "fitness salad" containing many a leaf of lettuce, nuts galore, garbanzo beans, and a wonderful vinagarette.
we play a show, sell merch, mingle with the german folk and wait for the rest of the bands to play...sometimes this gets quite old. i know that i am not cut out for this style of living. i don't want to complain, though. i am in a wonderful place and situation in life. i just wanted to give you an example of our typical day...it continues and continues...in a week we will have a day off in prague and then hopefully another day off in either pairs or northern italy. if you are reading this then you have probably been getting my "group" email...so far this is the only way of getting some pictures out there.
nate is currently working on a flicker account of pictues.
it looks like we have to get the stuff off the stage pronto. the show is done. koufax played their encore and now it is time for disco...the europeans love their disco...believe me.
this life will not last and that makes me happy. it is good to be here and it will be good to be home...it is just such a strange way to see germany and europe...sometimes i forget that i am even across the sea.
i hope you all are doing well...
today i watched a movie with a scene in it from a school and i was sure thankful that i wasn't there...the longer i am away from that establishment...the more i seem to despise it. maybe this is just a stage i'm in....hopefully.

lastly, i'm finishing up a book titled demian by herman hesse. i hope to write a bit about what i have been thinking about while reading it. it has some lovely quotes.
okay, thank you for reading this.
readmeright.
-josh